And although it has only been one year, I am, quite literally, astounded by the goodness and the integrity and the sheer joy that is my husband. This man is : loving, patient, kind, witty beyond belief, an incredible debater re: all things politics, a humanitarian to his core, level headed.
He is also: mine. I have no idea how that happened.
And let's be honest. The first year of marriage can teach you a lot about a lot. I knew that Shoes and I would have some adjusting to do to real life. The majority of our relationship had been long distance. You know what happens on the weekends you see each other when you're doing long distance? Fancy dinners, lovely cocktails, trips to the zoo ... when you see each other only on the weekends, it's a perpetual party. Real life is not always a party.
I mean, sometimes it is. Sometimes life is a party. Sometimes, though, it's more like "I took the dog out at 5:30 this morning so I think it's your turn to take her to the dog park." Sometimes it's more like, "I know we had sushi last week but we're having it again this week because I'm exhausted and I just can't bear to make one more decision." Sometimes it's more like, "Babe. Why is the light fixture still in the closet and not installed in the dining room?"
And, then, sometimes life is like, "Lisa, watch this. I can totally make Dogs bark now." And sometimes it's like, "Your nephew just said he has a lucky muscle." And sometimes it's like, "My best friend's kid is running around town wearing a batman cape."
Our marriage is in the living and my living now happens side by side by a short, brown haired gem of a human being.
We've done life this year. O, Lord. Have we done life. We got a dog. I got a job. We got married. We bought a house. I quit my job. I got a different job. Shoes adjusted to his job (contracts and public records and risk management aren't quite the same as being a deputy prosecuting attorney). Shoes and I, we've had some moments. Some misunderstandings. I think Rosie and I have taken him to depths of his patience he didn't know existed. But more than that ... more than the dialogues and the life that had to be lived and the dog that's eaten just about everything under the sun ... more than that, there is a deep well of commitment, respect, and complete and consuming love for each other.
See, here's the thing. When Shoes and I said our vows last year, we didn't commit to just a marriage. We committed to a lifelong endeavor of supporting the other person and growing with the other person. We didn't commit to "husband and wife." Moreso, we committed to "human being and human being."
We committed to the entire sum of the other person: the love, the strength, the humor, the fears, the insecurities. We committed also to the commitment.
To celebrate one year of marriage, we headed north to a mountain lake and rented jet skis. We chased each other around and raced each other and got deliciously sun burned. We drank wine in the mountain town and ate delicious Italian food. We took naps. We laughed. We hugged. We talked about our wedding. We talked about our upcoming year.
On the Sunday of our anniversary weekend, we took a walk in a large, nearby city park, where, on our actual anniversary, we watched from a distance another couple saying their vows. And we saw how happy their loved ones were. And we watched them celebrate. And I cried. Because that's what I do: Professional Crier. And Shoes said, "Wife, stop." Because that's what he does. And I hoped for this couple what I hope for Shoes and I: that even when life is hard and circumstances are terrible, you can still celebrate the union and the relationship and the other person.
Man. A year goes by so quickly...