clearness or lucidity as to perception or understanding;

freedom from indistinctness or ambiguity.

(What I'm seeking right now).

Right now? Right now school is hard and things are busy. Papers and projects are due, small groups must be met with (and I'm meeting small groups with mixed success, coincidentally. Turns out, graduate school was not an immediate guarantee that we all wanted to be there and we are all taking it seriously. As one of my group members says (con.stant.ly), "I hate this stuff. I'm here because my work is paying for it. I know what I need to know."

Really? Because I don't know hardly anything - even after 10 years in the field. Especially after 10 years in the field.

O, but we won't really get into that.


So I'm working on finishing up this term, battling a terrible cold, and I started a new job right before Christmas, working as an administrative assistant in a Very Large Hospital in Shared Resources. I'm not sure what all that means yet, but I do know that I can bill significantly more for mouse intestines than I can for the entire mouse. And cryopreservation?

Fugheddabodit.

That'll run you $1500 a pop.

All of these billings, invoices, grant applications ... wow. Never thought I'd be doing this. And to tell you the truth, the jury's still out. I miss working with people. I miss working with kids, especially.

Is it a drug? Am I addicted? Or do I just not like the mandatory learning curve that's taking place because for the first time in years I haven't been able to hit the ground running?

Also something I'm seeking clarity about.

And then there's the FaceBook fast ... I gave up Facebook for Lent (and despite previous spiritual fasts, this is the first time I've formally observed Lent), and I'm seeking clarity there too. But that is a story in and of itself, so I'll save that posting for next time.

Now, onto my final End of Life and Palliative Care project, to be followed up with more research on my final Micro-theory paper.

1 Comment

  1. t i m on February 23, 2010 at 2:19 PM

    Wow, that’s a lot to juggle at once but I’m told hard work, perseverance etc pays off in the end... *says assuredly* so keep at it

    My fb hiatus is surprisingly go well after week 1 simply because I’ve got some much needed to catch up on... for now. Now it’s just 5 more weeks or so to go

     


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