it's a conundrum. but not really. i may not have spelled conundrum correctly. that's probably the real problem.
This blog didn't always use to be this blog. This blog started on MSN Spaces four years ago. Life was quite a bit different then. Four years ago I was living in the Vineyard Town, working in juvenile detention, married to former husband and on a different life track. I had been accepted to a Masters of Teaching Education Program. Former Husband and I were planning to move overseas and teach English as a second language. We were trying to have a baby. Life was different. I was different.
And then ... and then life happened and everything that I knew (melodramatic, yes, and also, no exaggeration) changed. Two very real, very different truths were apparent:
1) I didn't feel like blogging on the old blog anymore. Too weird. I tried for a few months but it just wasn't the same. For better or worse, I wasn't the same person. Hence the move to blogspot.
2) I didn't want to take it down, either. Because, as weird and awkward as it was, it happened. Why deny that reality?
Now MSN Live Spaces is going away and would like to know if I'd like to move the old blog to Word Press or disable it altogether.
Part of me would like to move it and keep it because it did happen. And it didn't just happen for me. It was a blog, for heaven's sake, which meant that it part of it happened for other people, too. And trust me, I met some amazing people through that blog.
The other part of me doesn't care if I keep it around. Not that I actively don't want to ... but a small part of me doesn't care either way. I'm happy now and it's taken me a long time to get here. Well. It's felt like it's taken a long time.
And then. There's former husband to think about. (Oh, trust me. It has been quite a journey for me to be able to come to the point to describe this part.) He knew about the blog. Didn't actively read it. But maybe he wouldn't want it up anymore. (I won't be contacting him to find out, though.)
I know you have better things to worry about. Global warming. Starving children. Homeless veterans. Blood diamonds. You know. The important stuff.
But. If it were you, what would you find yourself doing?