What to do?

This blog didn't always use to be this blog.  This blog started on MSN Spaces four years ago.  Life was quite a bit different then.  Four years ago I was living in the Vineyard Town, working in juvenile detention, married to former husband and on a different life track.  I had been accepted to a Masters of Teaching Education Program.  Former Husband and I were planning to move overseas and teach English as a second language.  We were trying to have a baby.  Life was different.  I was different. 

And then ... and then life happened and everything that I knew (melodramatic, yes, and also, no exaggeration) changed. Two very real, very different truths were apparent:

1)  I didn't feel like blogging on the old blog anymore.  Too weird.  I tried for a few months but it just wasn't the same.  For better or worse, I wasn't the same person.  Hence the move to blogspot.
2)  I didn't want to take it down, either.  Because, as weird and awkward as it was, it happened. Why deny that reality?

Now MSN Live Spaces is going away and would like to know if I'd like to move the old blog to Word Press or disable it altogether.

Good question.

I waffle.

Part of me would like to move it and keep it because it did happen.  And it didn't just happen for me.  It was a blog, for heaven's sake, which meant that it part of it happened for other people, too.  And trust me, I met some amazing people through that blog.

The other part of me doesn't care if I keep it around. Not that I actively don't want to ... but a small part of me doesn't care either way.  I'm happy now and it's taken me a long time to get here.  Well.  It's felt like it's taken a long time.

And then.  There's former husband to think about.   (Oh, trust me.  It has been quite a journey for me to be able to come to the point to describe this part.)  He knew about the blog.  Didn't actively read it.  But maybe he wouldn't want it up anymore.  (I won't be contacting him to find out, though.)

I know you have better things to worry about. Global warming.  Starving children.  Homeless veterans.  Blood diamonds.  You know. The important stuff.

But.  If it were you, what would you find yourself doing?

I'm curious.

6 comments

  1. Elizabeth on October 20, 2010 at 10:09 PM

    I would let it go...like I would let go all the stuff that happened in the past. While some of it was great, this is better and real and in the moment. But whatever you decide to do I'll stand behind it...reason or no reason!

    Totally not on topic, but i have your pumpkin and it would like at your house...if possible.

     
  2. AandW Drive-Thru on October 21, 2010 at 4:51 AM

    See, I would keep it my friend... because I like to look back and marvel at how God got me to where I am... there are painful things, but also the miracle of redemption and grace and new life given. Maybe someday, I'd need to be reminded of it when my memory fails or grows dim. But, that's just me. Do let us know what you decide...

     
  3. Kylee on October 21, 2010 at 1:04 PM

    I will tell you what I did and you can take it or leave it :) I started my blog what will be four years ago this December. When life happened for me, all I did was change the name of my blog to "Kylee and Greg." It is the same blog. Has all of the blogs that I posted when I was with my ex-husband and life was great. Life has changed, still great, but has changed very much so. I like to look back on it to see how far I have come and marvel in how God works horrible things for good. Ultimately it is up to you and I hope you find peace with whatever decision you make.

     
  4. Sarah's Blog on October 21, 2010 at 3:49 PM

    well, (this is my serious face) I think you should keep it. If the blog website closes then you could print it and keep it in a journal that you can tuck away for a rainy day. I think that in 20 years you might be reminiscent and like to read about what brought you through the fire.

    Now, (with a big smile) you could print it and bring it to my house and we could play a nice game of darts.

    I know I am such a big help!

     
  5. Ronna on October 22, 2010 at 7:52 PM

    Lisa. It's your story. You have to keep it. It's our story too. How would I have ever met you if not for that little world called MSN Spaces? My heart is a little bigger because of it. And I am a better person because of it. So are you. We lived our lives outloud for a while and it was ok. Even if you keep it on a private site, it's a part of who you are.

    I love you!!

     
  6. Maria on October 24, 2010 at 6:49 PM

    I think whatever the answer is u'll know what to do. But if u leave plz leave a forwarding address:)

     


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